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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2018|03:18 pm]
[mood | cheerful]

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(no subject) [Oct. 2nd, 2008|01:56 pm]

HELLO ;D

http://van-essaxo.blogspot.com

♥thnks much, lovesssss xoxo.
LinkCMNT♥

(no subject) [Oct. 1st, 2008|12:05 am]
When every other avergae human being is mugging his/her ass off, what is VANESSA doing?
Oh, I'll tell you.
She just spends her time, thinking about you. Wondering if you're okay. Of if you really do care.
Okay. Stop it, Vanessa.
You dont wanna get your hopes up high again, only to see it being crushed by that someone you love most.
No.
With or without you. I gotta learn it the hard way. I'm just not as blessed as everyone else I guess. Cause LOVE for me isn't how I thought it would be.
But it's okay. & even if I'm not alright, no one's gonna follow me through. So I gotta get by these days myself.
It may be hard. But hey, that's how I've been getting through the past 1 month ++.
I'll just be patient & wait. Just like how I've been waiting for the past idk how long.
Good things are worth the wait yah?
Fuck it if it's hard. But I know I'm stronger than this.
So, I shouldnt take the easy way out & GIVE UP.
Cause, Vanessa NEVER gives up on LOVE.
♥
LinkCMNT♥

I'd rather be alone if I cant have you, [Sep. 30th, 2008|11:00 pm]
[mood | gloomy]

Lately, you're never ever with me.
Maybe you were never once here.
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Seoul Garden again today with Clique, LUCKY 13 & I chose #6 ;D What a nice name I gave our Clique hur, all THIRTEEN of us. Heeeheee. Exams are justtt, A WASTE OF TIME. Seriously. I freaking slpet at 2 yesterday, desperate attempt to burn midnight oil & mugmugmug. Cause I only started revising Chemistry at 10pm. But to no avail. Today's paper was horrible manzxz. Calculation here & there, my weakness =[ I just know, I'm gonna fail that paper. Humanities paper yesterday = BUANG. Seriously, no time to complete. Huhhhhh, how? *shakes head*

Thinking of exams makes me stressed & gives me headaches like as if I'm being squished by an avalanche. Cannot, cannot. If I carry on like this, I wont even get to smell SEC4 next year =[ Jialat x1000000. & have I mentioned how difficult my English paper was?! Damn-ness okay. I just have this strong strong feeling that I wont be able to pass it. !#@^&*. Die le die le.

So, Vanessa shall stop stressing herself with EOY & start planning for 9 weeks of utter freedom! It spells, H-O-L-I-D-A-Y-S ;DD Yayyy. Omgomg. I'm so in the holiday mood already. Nightlife-s, Chalets, tonning, clubbing, drinking, sheesha with LUCKY13 (CLIQUE!). I CANT WAITTTTTT! Especeially excited about sheesha-ing. Want to try it since 2007. This time, I MUSTCANWILL ;) My failed attempts to tell myself to stop eating, really arh, FAIL. I keep spending my precious money on food. Wlao ey. Whywhywhy. OH! & MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE appeared in my English Paper Narrative Writing. Hahahazxz. MYCHEMICALROMANCE?! Yesyes. MCR leh, what an xcore story I wrote, hawhaw! Okay, back to topic. After EOY, Erika's gonna stay over at my house, we'll wake up at 9 to go jogging, then get dressed & go OUTOUTOUT! & We'll go watch Midnight Movie with our loves, yah? Well, hopefully I guess. Really, hopefully.

I swear I have a gazillion peekaz to upload. Okay, maybe 60++? But i'm not gonna upload ALL. Obviously, that was pure exaggeration ;D

♥ Mid-Autumn Festival w/ Erika!


♥ Town & Seoul Garden & Gaddiel's after school 2 weeks ago w/ Clique!





♥ Jurong Spring





♥ TODAY.



&, LUCKY 13 ;D

Tina, Yingxue & Jiajia not in Picture.



& YOU.
I'm still waiting to finally hear from you ♥
For now, it's back to reality. Again. Y'know, I just hope you meant everything you said, cause I did.
I just wish for my phone to ring & when it does, it's cause you finally replied.
♥SUPERLOVESSS,
Love hurts manzxz. It's just sweet sacrifice.
LinkCMNT♥

(no subject) [Sep. 25th, 2008|09:55 pm]
[mood | busy]

I better update today before CLIQUE! kpkb again, heeeheee ;D

Paiseh arh, I'm just super busy. I'm Supergirl y'know, I gotta save the world, especially those cats that are stuck on top of trees. Poor cats hur? That's why I'm hereeeee ;D

Anyways. Eventful week, quite. Took a bus to somewhere all by myself on Monday. Boy, it was so totally worth it. I cant believe I got 20/25 for Physics test. Super unbelievable for someone who got E8 last term! English paper today was so off-point can. An unforgettable celebration = my parents died 2 years ago on my 15th Birthday = I'm 17 now = I came back from studying abroad = everyone surprised me = INCLUDING, get this, MYCHEMICALROMANCE?! = celebrate a new beginning. HAHAHAZXZ. Seriously though, WHAT WAS I THINKING?! Mygod mygod. Die le la.

CLIQUE! had Mac's for lunch then came over to my house. I spent 3 hours on _____________. Hope you'll appreciate it ;D

Okay, I've seriously got to make this quick. I havent started doing my Chinese assesment in preparation for tomorrow's exam & I've no idea what the format for 'gong han' is. How how how?! Crappppppppppppppppp. Damn-ness.

Oh, & I'm friendly? Heeeheee. Okay, buay bah already. *slaps myself*

I cant believe it's going to be the 3RD.

& I'm really for the haphazard-ness of the way I'm updating. Seriously, NO TIME!!!

Today, I must:
-Memorise gong han format
-Finish up Chemistry notes.

Good luck with love.
;) wonder WHO said that.
Aint gonna tall yah!
Hawhawhaw.

xo♥

*I have to do well for my end years.

LinkCMNT♥

You're the missing I need, the song inside of me [Sep. 6th, 2008|11:04 am]
[mood | indescribable]

Missed.

By the way, thanks for being an avid reader of van-essaxo.livejournal.com. & if you're wondering or if you've already assumed, then no. I am not happy at all. Live with me & you'll know what I mean.

Past few days were spent at Erika's. Daddy's picking me up later at 12 plus. Then I'll have to survive tuition at 3 & the whatever whatever Physics pressure crap, yah, that kinda thing. One week holidays ending already & *surprise surprise* I havent studied at all. How can I? Totally no mood, sighs. I still get those dreams every other night, the ones that I really wish I didnt have to wake up from. & when I actually wake up from Lala Land, I feel like complete & utter crap. Howwwwwwww, you tell me? How? I have no idea manzxz.

Sadly, I cant upload any of the peekas I've taken with Erika cause I dont have the USB cable with me. (Like duh, who carries a USB cable around?) & I'll probably only upload them after End Year's, which I only found out yesterday via Yingxue, is in 19 days. OMGOMG. As in NINETEEN?! Die le la. Diediedie. I want to mugmugmug super effing hard but so many things that's happening disallows me to. Gahh. Why is it so stressful being a 15 year-old girl? If life's gonna be like this, I'd rather die.

Somehow, I look forward to school on Monday. But sometimes, I dont. It's just this nostalgia, I cant really explain. Y'know, the ai mai ai mai feeling? Yah, correct! & my tongue seriously hurts when I talk/eat =[ Blame it on the Laksa I ate 3 days ago. It's not really swollen anymore but it just cant stop hurting & I talk still laohong one. & I just realised that the hole is huge, bigger than 1.8 la. Like literally can see a hole. Hawhaw, whatthehellzxz!

Rights, I think I should really go study Physics now. Even if it means just reading & not understanding, at least I can console myself & say that I've read already. Very pathetic, dont laugh!

I've been feeling lost, & I cant find the words to say.
Spending all my time, stuck in yesterday.

♥Just when?
LinkCMNT♥

Smiley, Tongue & what else? [Sep. 3rd, 2008|11:45 pm]
[mood | confused]
[music |I can do better- Avril Lavigne]

♥

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing.
I need to find you, I gotta find you.
You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me
I need to find you, I gotta find you.

I watched CampRock again today. Joe Jonas = Eye Candyyyyyyy ;D Really, no kidding manzxz. So I spent the day nua-ing on my bed, my sofa & with Ashlee Lee Ping Ping. No life, no life at all. What to do. I cant help it. Wanna go out shan shan xin also no mood. Geezxz. It's time I seriously give myself a break & just unwind & forget about everything. & I mean, everything.

Vanessa's life = might as well die. The only thing that's stopping me from doing that is the fact that I've the most lovely-est girlfriends in the world. My BFL&D (Best For Life & Death) Yingxue, my dearest SmileyClique, Fion (whom she regards me as her Arkaliao ;D) & of course ERIKA who I'll be meeting tomorrow, finally. Oh & pardon my random-ness but I'm starting to think that my suspected Short-term memory is real. Cause I ate Laksa today which I really shouldnt have cause it contains seafood & there goes my tongue =[ I can forget about talking tomorrow le, wlao ey whatthehellzxz x10000000. Booboobooo =[

Rights. Okayokay. I'm so sick of those umm, CMI 13 year olds who umm, think they own the entire universe cause they've got a boyfriend. All I can say is, "Huh, like that means zai? Wait till y'all break, see how it feels lor." Hold on, they wont feel anything & I've got a living example. Nono, it isnt me. Cause 1. I'm 15 now. & 2. I admit I was retarded, thinking that I'd last milleniums to come with my first, only realising that there's such a thing called puppylove & 3. No, not this time. It's different & I have to grow up & be strong. Aiya, suan le suan le. Shouldnt dwell on what has become the past, but I'll admit it'll always be a part of me & that certain someone will not be forgotten. Not so soon. Maybe never? Okay, I should really shut up about such moroseful stuffs.

Anyways, holidays started 5 days ago & *surprise surprise*, I havent started studying. My end year results confirm buang already. I wanna drop Pure Physics. But I heard I have to drop Pure Chem & take combined Physics&Chem. & that means I'll still have to take Physics, which is complete & utter, CRAP! Damn-ness. *Click click click* I like the sound my barbell makes when I play with my tongue. Hawhaw. Fion, my piercing quite cute hor? Seh yi bian de. But the top is straight ;D Heehee. It's unique kay!

Y'know, I'm really trying THIS hard to be the super random & cheerful Van-essaxo that everyone used to love. & though every now & then you'll hear me go on & on about how much I miss ________, Believe me, I'm trying super hard to be the girl who smiled for life. & suddenly, I miss my BFL&D Yingxue who was supposed to call me. Irritating.My mind is empty but my heart is drowned with a gaziliion why-s. Sorry, but I wished I knew why too. Managed to catch up with Sabrina today. Only to find out that her life is as jialat as mine. Sian one leh, why are all the guys hopelessly dumping their girlfriends? I just wanna be happy again & make that asap. Cause it's killing the life outta me. Oh! Just remembered a conversation I had with Daddy just now.

V: All guys are evil manzxz.
D: Yah, then that time still can quarrel with me because of your 1st bf.
V: Hahaha. Oh yah! No more already la. I've grown up now.
D: Yahyah. You now no bf meh?
V: No more already la.
D: Good! Study first. Then next time sure got guys at the door, begging you to be their gf.
V: *dreams*

So my mom-ster wants to buy me a tongue scraper for my tongue piercing & my dad thinks I'm turning into a Gothic Lolita. Heehee, whatthehell la! Well, I like Victorian Lolita fahion cause it's pure vintage but Gothic's a little over. & I'm still in search of a White Vanity Mirror & dressing table. Like this one:
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Daddy! Christmas kay? Heehee.

Gotta wake up bright & early tomorrow to make my IC with Daddy & my brother. Staying over at Erika's tomorrow. It's high time I mugged for my End Year's. Practically flunked term 3 & I'll die if I continue at the rate I'm going = ALL PLAY & NO WORK. & Erika & I are gonna watch CampRock again tomorrow. It'll be the 1st time she'll be seeing it & totally melting over JOE JONAS.

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HAHAHA, XIAOYUAN!

Okay. Yawnzxz. Gotta wake up friggin early tomorrow. For now, it's back to reality, bad dreams, uncontrolled emotions & crazy thoughts. Cant help it, but I'm trying to get over it.

You're gone, so long & I can do better,

♥
LinkCMNT♥

(no subject) [Sep. 1st, 2008|10:20 pm]
[music |Play My Music]

Today, I had to let go.


Woke up early at 8, got dressed & went to school for Chemistry Tutorial. But what's ironic is that, I didnt go for even ONE minute of the tutorial. Whatthehellzxz right? Something happened. But it's ALL OVER. Crying in the 3rd floor toilet, sitting beside the sink is seriously, not fun at all. Anyways, tutorial started at 10 & last till 1 but I was in the toilet way before tutorial & went down to the concourse & saw Musu, Gerald & Dayna. I looked horrible manzxz,my eyes looked like it was gonna, get this, POPOUT. Really. Waited for Shandy & Peishan till 12 & we left for IKEA. How nice of them to accompany me hor? ;D Got my 1.8 hollowpin & met Fion at Batok. Oh, & thanks Fion for everything today. & I mean everything. The 4 of us walked to somewhere behind the mrt there & talked talked talked then YAY. I finally got my tongue pierced by that super zai Gan of mine. Hawhaw. It's the most painful tongue piercing, I swear. She pierced from below & the freaking needle just dont wanna go through the top of my tongue. Fion had to take the needle out & re-pierce it but it still wont go through. Mygodzxz. So she like, kiap my tongue & accidentally poke her finger. Paiseh hor. But yayyyy, it's done! & I guess piercings are just a way to remind me of the love I once had. Yup.

After I spit out all my saliva & blood (sorry Fion, it was all over your hands!), we went to buy cookie baking stuffs, came to my home & baked cookies! & now, Peishan Xiaoyuan & Shandy are here with me, staying over so that I wont think of you know? Yah, correct! Wahh, seriously Fion just couldnt stop laughing at the way I talk now. & Shandy & Peishan hor, jitao laugh until peng lor. & I cant eat for like idontknow how many days, but I dont really have the appetite anyways. Super laohong la, the way I talk.

Anyways, we're gonna watch CampRock now before any of ya'll do! Heeeheee. We're xcore manzxz. & yah, thanks Peishan Xiaoyuan & Shandy for staying over tonight ;D

&& Fion! I owe you a gazillion ;D

Peishan, we MUST/CAN(?)/WILL be happy single!

Thanks for the memories, & those last words you said to me.


♥
LinkCMNT♥

(no subject) [Aug. 31st, 2008|10:27 am]
[mood | sad]

I didnt cry the whole night on 210808 for nothing.
I didnt bring up my courage to go meet you on 220808 for nothing.
I didnt carve that heart on my wrist for nothing.
I didnt spend my weekends at home thinking about us all day for nothing.
I didnt think of what to do for our 2 months although we've already broken up in class when I should be studying for nothing.
I didnt ignore my teacher & just take out my phone to count the number of days we were together for nothing.
I didnt fold 54 paper hearts to represent the number of days we were together for nothing.
I didnt spend the whole day thinking of exactly 54 metters that will make up a phrase for nothing.
(WENPING, I NEVER LOVED ANYONE SO MUCH BEFORE. WILL YOU PATCH WITH ME?) It's really 54.
I didnt go to Vivo just to buy Candy from Candy Empire on Tuesday for nothing.
I didnt bake that brownie with a heart & a 'W' in the middle for nothing.
I didnt believe you when you said you'd come back for nothing.
I didnt worry about you night & day for nothing.
I didnt hold back my tears when we met to talk for nothing.
I didnt tell you face face 'Your love means alot to me' for nothing.
I didnt send you messages knowing that you wont reply for nothing.

Since we broke up, yesterday was the first time you told me those 3 words that I've been dying to here from you. I know you still love me & it's hard for you to let me go & just give up on our relationship like that. That's why I'm telling you that you dont have to let me go & give us up when I still love you THIS much & when you still love me too. You do know how hard it's been for me. We can just get back together & be the happy couple we know we can be. What's holding you back? Are the problems you're facing so huge that you can bear to leave me just like that? I really cant. You broke your promise & my heart, you said you'll be back & I've been counting down the days. It's exactly 3 weeks to go & see, I'm still so in love with you. You gave me the kinda love I cant find anywhere else. All I'm saying is, since you still love me then please dont go. No matter how troubled you are, you know we can still be together cause our love is so much more stronger than having to just let it go.

If you wanna settle all the problems you have at hand first, I'll wait for you to come back.
But you do know you can come back anytime, cause I'm waiting for you.
I know WE can.

Keep holding on, cause I know we'll make it through.

I love you.

LinkCMNT♥

You will always be my Baby, [Aug. 30th, 2008|09:26 pm]
[mood | blank]
[music |This Love You Breathe]

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave boy
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end, no

I know that you'll be back boy
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder
I know that you'll be right back, babe
Oh baby believe me it's only a matter of time

*

Okay, emo-ness aside, I'VE GOT A VERY VERY SUPER LOVELY SMILEY CLIQUE ;D I owe y'all like a gazillion for keeping my mind off umm, my horrible sad sad x 1000000 love life? Yup.

I swear, yesterday was piercing day manzxz.

4 got their Smiley-s done.
2 got Navel.
& another 2 got Eyebrow.

Okay, tell me my clique is MAD, but I love them to the xcoreeeeeeeeeeee. We were all like roaming around Woodlands in search of the piercing place but to no avail, crapppppp. Huishan & Sherlyn got their Navel pierced at the same place as before while Shandy & Peishan got their Eyebrows done! After wasting 4 hours, we headed to Lot1 to meet Fion. Walked to the void deck & Rachael got her Smiley re-pierced by Fion. There's only one word to describe Fion, ZAI. I'm serious. Sherlyn was so tempted by OUR (Peishan Shandy Rachael & I) Smiley-s that she got XIAOXUAN to pierce for her. Yes, XIAOXUAN. It was her first time piercing for people & it was so successful, it cannot be anymore successful. Xiaoxuan & Weining then got tempted by our Smiley-s that we went to Westmall's Handicap toilet & I gave them my 1.8 hollow pin & they pierced for each other. MYGOD. All 1st timers, brave hur? Huishan Shandy Peishan Weining Xiaoxuan & I squeezed into the Handicap toilet & got chased out, HAHAHAHA. Cannot make it hor. If only Yingxue was there to witness all the piercing & blood. Actually, not alot of blood.

Interhouse on Thursday was like............ =[ Poor Shandy flew down to the floor. (Anyways I'm eating Ashlee's dog biscuits as I'm typing this, my brother forced me to & Daddy said it's nice?!) After interhouse, I sang out all my sorrows while Adiel & Musu played the guitar. Siao already la. Oh, & I gave Wenping our '2 months' present. 'It's awesome' hor? Heehee. & who said I'm very happy like that?! SIAO EY. & TINAHO, stop playing with my forehead leh. I know how to reverse hor!

My report slip is BUNG + A = BUANG. (Hahaha, reminds me of what Sherlyn said!)

Chinese A1
English B4
Chemistry C5
E Maths C5
A Maths C5
SS Geog C6
Physics E8

I cant believe I got an A for Chinese. Hang around somebody too much already? I wish I can spend more time with him, then I'll get A* for sure. I got D7 for term 1 & B4 for term 2. HAHAHA. I am gonna dedicate this one week holidays to XCORE PHYSICS MUGGING.

So, I've to go back to school on Monday for Chemistry tutorial & I cant wait cause I get to see Xuexue & the other reason, I dont wish to say it here. But ask me & I'll tell you. Just not here on my LiveJ. Was supposed to go IKEA today with Shandy Peishan Xiaoxuan Weining & idontknowwho else but MOMSTER's in a super bad mood. WHATTHEHELLZXZ RIGHT?! Geezxz. & my brother just left home with the car, lucky-ass! I'm stuck home the whole day & so bored that I finished ALL my holiday homework in 3 hours, pro or what? Hawhaw! oo bored already, I can just evaporate here. JUST evaporate.

Anyways, PICTURES!
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Okay, so it turns out they didnt go IKEA today too. Dont have me cannot go hor? HAHAHAZXZ, buay bah. *slaps myself* Tomorrow Peishan? I need to get it or else Monday cannot already. Then that will be the saddest thing ever besides, you-know-what. & yah Peishan, I'm trying my best to be positive already. Trying my VERY best kay.

Oh & paiseh Shandy, didnt update yesterday when I promised you!

I know it feels like the end, dont wanna be here again.
& we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again.
What it takes, I dont care. We're gonna make it I swear.
& we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again.

♥ 3 weeks & 1 day to go.
Loved&missed.
LinkCMNT♥

(no subject) [Aug. 21st, 2008|09:40 pm]
[mood | crushed]

My eyes are like burning. Super painful, red & dry =[

Couldnt remember what i did for the past week. Except yesterday. Stayed in school till 730 to watch Interhouse Basketball. Minghua is very irritating manzxz. But at least he can block the sun for me, hahahaha! Huishan & I 2 on 1 against Minghua. We are zai okay! My lay-up very powerful already hor. Minghua, I dont need 5 years of training lor. Tomorrow can win you already, heeeheee. 

Seriously, I just dont have the mood to study. 

& thanks everyone for the hugs! & all the 'Cheer up, Vanessa!'

There's just someone that I'm missing. Sighs.

XOXO
LinkCMNT♥

(no subject) [Aug. 21st, 2008|05:18 pm]

='[

I'm waiting, love.

LinkCMNT♥

drinkdrankdrunk [Aug. 17th, 2008|10:00 pm]
Where is my boy tonight?

I remember the days we spent together
Were not enough
And I used to feel like dreamin'
Except we always woke up
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

My weekends were totally boringggg. Sometimes I wished I didnt wake up at all for the past idontknow how long. & only have wake up when everything's back to normal. I really wish =[ but then there's tuition, school & YINGXUE. Very random, I know! & also there's Baby. Someone who I am missing so effing much now.

I just want Little Miss Cheerful & Mr Cheerful to be back like how we were, y'know =[ & quick. Cause it's practically killing me.

& thanks kind strangers for all the 'Smile, you're Little Miss Cheerful y'know?' kinda thing. I've aways believed that 'Tomorrow will be a brighter day' even though it doesnt seem like it. It's still better than nothing yah? *Must look on the bright side* So, Daddy tried to cheer me up with MCR THE BLACK PAARDE IS DEAD! DVD. Mygod. It did cheer me up for like 2 hours ;D MCR, SAVE MY LIFE!

I LOVE/HATE SCHOOL. Love it cause I get to see my Dearest Ahxue. Hate it cause the other reason why I go to school is not there anymore =[ At least I have my Xuexue & all her warm warm hugs. Sometimes, I pity her can. Cause I always hug her & imagine it's Baby that I'm hugging. Heeheee. Sorry la, Xue. Desperate times call for desperate measures! I love you kay, hawhaw!

LOSTPROPHETS! PLEASE COME BACK. I'll sure go to your show, I'll be front row & center! *screams*




Mummy opened it. 12% alcohol rocks me hard, but not hard enough. I want/need more. So I think I've got my love of alcohol from my Mom-ster. She used to be so alcoholi cause she had to entertain clients years ago. & drinkdrankdrunk. he always got so wasted that her friends had to call my dad to fetch her. I remember her lying on the floor, totally unconscious. & my dad had to wipe all the alcoholic crap off her, & change her. & how the smell of alcohol never left my house. But that was years back.

Still, drinking is always badass. It makes me want more & more. I'm not addicted kay.

Baby, 12more days to our 2nd.
I hope things will go back to normal by then.
Much hugs, kisses & ♥ 

YAWWENPING, I LOVE/MISS YOU TO THE CORE!
LinkCMNT♥

xoxo [Aug. 16th, 2008|02:56 am]
It's a month till End Year's. OHMYLORDDDD. Diediedie.

Soooooo, did quite alot this week. I'm a busy busy girl! Heeeheee.

Monday- NO SCHOOL! Erika stayed over for the weekends & we went to Bugis on Monday. Shopshopshop. & I got no more Ka-ching. Hell manzxz. VANESSA - $$$ = I'm oh so pathetic, geezxz. Okay, So that's not really the point. Erika & I got extensions BUTBUTBUT I took mine out already. I want to get them done professionally. Should I? Met Jana&Xiaofen there. Went home & everything. 

Tuesday- SCHOOL SUCKS KAY! Lunched at KFC with clique. I swear, I'm a fatfatfat little pig =[ Whyyyyyyyy. I.must.stop.eating.like.NOW. Sighs. A fat Vanessa is an angry & depressed Vanessa. Hahahazxz. What crap is that?! No idea. So, SHUSH!

Wednesday- SCHOOL IS CRAP! Math test after school. Teacher called me SUPERGIRL! Cause I rushed through my test in 20 minutes & ran out of class. Her fault kay, she came 20 minutes late! So why did I become Supergirl? Cause, I had to rush to meet Dearest before he has to become Superman & save lives & disappear AGAIN =[ Gahhhh. 

Thursday- SAVE ME FROM SCHOOL, PLEASE! SL meeting after school. Jana & I were seriously freaked out please. Like ohmygod, it's the most interrogative meeting I've ever been to. Almost died, like slaughtered, that kinda die. Ran all the way down to the court after the death-defying meeting & got the sweetest surprise (though not really in a sweet way). Xuexue came running to me. Then Benedict Soo came screaming at me (very gay, I know!). 

B: WLAO! WHERE WERE YOU?! TAKE SO LONG! I WANNA GO HOME ONE LEH!
V: I never ask you to wait. I didnt even know you're here can!

& Steffen step-yi-ge dulan. HAHAHAHA! Not scary at all lor.

S: Demon. Make me wait so long. Hmph!

Guys these days are super petty. (read above examples for clear backup of my statement)

Friday- SCHOOOOOOLLL = BOOOOOO! Learnt the Aces Day dance thingy. Y'know, doing it as an SL with all my dearest SL peeps makes it FUN x100000000000. Really. It's like, those who are really not afraid to lead, are not afraid of embarrassment. & actually, doing it as a group with all my lovely SL-s, makes me not embarrassed anymore. NOT AT ALL. See, the joys of being SL ;D Went Dingrong's house there to play ball. Wahhhhhh, super buang man. I am Dingrong's STAR PLAYER KAY! Okay. This is so whatever.

It's 2am now. & I'm sitting in my room alone. Duhhhh. I have tuition at 1030 later which means, I have to get up at 830. HOLY CRAP. Why am I still awake? Cause I'm waiting for Baby's call. 

It's been hard on me. But I dont mind.
& it's just because,
I LOVELOVELOVE YOU.








Alrightyyyyyyy. YAWNZXZ. I'm TIRED.

I will not go there again.

Just for the record, you're a criminal. & I DIDNT la. Lame-shitsssssss.

Babydearest, I MISS YOU LIKE FTW =[
LOVESSSSSSSSSSS.
LinkCMNT♥

(no subject) [Aug. 10th, 2008|10:25 pm]
[mood | listless]

Baby, you're so near yet so far.
Where've you been?
I missssssssssssss you.

The past week was the shitzxz man. I cant believe I havent met Baby for OVER a week. Like mygod. I can seriously die now. Okay, I dont wanna talk about my love life. All I wanna say is, I REALLY MISS YAW WEN PING ALOT. Sighs. 

Monday was really retarded. Xue & I cabbed down to make my IC but I freaking didnt bring my birthcert. CRAPPY SHIT RIGHT?! I know!

& then Tuesday till TODAY was HELLLLLLLL for me.

Oh! But I met Clique! at Bugis on Friday after all the dramatic crap I had in school; crying infront of everyone. Yah, tissue paper very expensive hor, TINAHO? Thanks ya'll for cheering me up & JiaJia for the non-stop pinching of my cheeks to make me smile. So, I kinda went to Bugis feeling like this =[. It could've been this =], but no. It had to be this =[. Why? I dont know. Wait, I know. But dont ask me. Geezxz.

I've got soooooooooooo manymanymany pictures to upload. & I wanna play my PS2 Japanese drumdrum thing. It's been ages. Oh, & Erika's hereeeeeeeeeee! 




This is NEOYINGXUE. She's my Ark Ka Liao ;D For life manzxz.

Okay. BYE.

xoxo

LinkCMNT♥

(no subject) [Aug. 2nd, 2008|10:49 pm]
[mood | cheerful]
[music |Burn Burn -Lost Prophets!]

It's the SUPER boring weekends again. I'm alone at home, with the exception of my maid & my dog Ashlee. & there's thunder rumbling so loud, it sounds like the end of the world is here. *Gasp* ohmygod.

I spent the whole afternoon watching TV, downloading songs, eating & editting pictures. What a saturday manzxz. & my parents are not in town. I shouldnt be at home. Why am I at home? I have no idea. & still, I have tons of un-touched homework that has to be done TODAY. So really, just what am I doing manzxz.

The past week has been weird & boring & everything. Chemistry Practicals HURTS, really. Case partner Weiting & I spilled sodium hydroxide on ourselves & thought it wouldnt hurt. But it actually pierced through our skin. & I almost fainted after taking in a deep breath of AMMONIA. I'm like wondering why I didnt die from that. Heeeheee. Met Baby quite a number of times this week & left my Leaders Pin with him, twice. I wonder how it's doing under his 'care'. Oh & Baby was a HERO yesterday, hor? Hahaha. Seriously though, he saved someone's ass. & that's hot. Oh & yes! Tuesday was our FIRST ;D How time flies. & before we know it, it would be our 10th, 100th & it goes on & on & on! I dont know why I totally black out when I reach home everyday after school at like, 6. & then I get up at 9 & miss dinner & go to sleep again without even unzipping my bag to take out my homework, which I should really be doing now.

Dearest, thanks for accompanying me home 3 days straight. You're the sweetest. But I very good hor? Pei you all the way kay! ;D





I ♥ LOST PROPHETS!

Seriously, I should be doing my homeworkkkkkkkk, like now.

1 month 4 days & going STRONG ;D
Wenping = ♥ ;D
LinkCMNT♥

All a bunch of liars, [Jul. 27th, 2008|12:00 am]
[mood | cheerful]

Sorry hor, my face very 'buang'.
Why not post a picture of yourself & we'll see who more 'buang' ?

Anyways, ANONYMOUS COMMENTING IS NOW DIS-ABLED IN VAN-ESSAXO.LIVEJOURNAL.COM ;D

Sorry kind strangers, but I just hate/despise those liancore-x. They're polluting my pretty little livejournal. So yah. They really got nothing better to do, forgive them hur. Like, whatever?

Today, lunch & dinner was OUT. Had tuition & left for LiangCourt. Got my new Samsung 8.1 DigiCam & ate my Tanuki Udon! Super full & I feel like a ballllll, really round. Hawhaw! Must go on a diet already, boooooooo. I'm 43kg now, OHMYGOD! *slaps myself, hard* I dont know why I've been eating so much lately, must be the eating disorder. Tsktsk. Irritating to the core manzxz.

I'm like superrrrrrrrrrrrrr bored, I swear. Yawnzxz, & I have tuition tomorrow. Whatthehell. I really need a break from school/homework/tuition everything. It's killing me & I'm dying already, geezxz. My life is like, schoolhomeworksleep & of course Mr Cheerful! My mundane life is boring me to the core but I cant really do anything about it. Grrrrrr.





( JYWP ;D )


Gahhhhhhhhhhh. It's midnight & I'm still eating cake?! Mygod, Vanessa. STOP EATING! Say.hello.to.fats.boooo.

Lucky coin = Zhijie is seriously losing it. BUT lucky coin predicted that Wenping & I will last LONG. & by long I mean, FOREVERRRRRR! Heeeheee.

2 days to FIRST (: 
Lllooovvveee lllooovvveee, dearest!
♥
LinkCMNT♥

Wouldnt wanna be yah! [Jul. 26th, 2008|12:00 am]
[mood | cheerful]

Okay, so I did forget to thank a few people. Heeheee.

Jana
Afiah
Zhijie
Weiting
Syazwani
Pearlyn
Zhiliang
Darryl
Joey
Weilin
Zul
Lijie
Aloysius
Ivan
& those who wished me on friendster, THANKS MUCH.

♥

This whole week has been crazy&unexpected but in a good way ;D

Monday! was home cause I was (& still am) sick. Would've died in the pouring rain or scotch-hot sunshine if I actually went for the cultural outing.

Tuesday! was my 15th birthday. Didnt wanna go to school, but it was my birthday yah see. Must let people know that I'm ALIVE & not-so-well. Haikal surprised me with a present. Other radomly shouted, "Vanessa! Happy Birthday!" that I couldnt really remember who they were. Hawhaw. Went home after school as I was running a temperature & slept like no tomorrow. Until I decided to go to the doctor & came home, surprised with 2 cakes, Blackforest & Mango Mousse. UNEXPECTEDLY, Kenrick called me at Monday night 12am to wish me but I was already dead asleep. & before 220708 was over at around 1150, he messaged me Happy Birthday again. Also UNEXPECTEDLY, Zhijie called at around 1145pm to wish me. & he was all, "I sure last to wish you, I special what. I call you at 1159pm, sure last one." So I thought he was joking, but he really did. Seriously, unexpected of them.

Wednesday! got my present from THE boyfriend. Hahaha. Awhhh, he made us couple rings ;D Sweeeeet hor? & it fits me JUST right. I dont even know how he know which ring size to get, heeeheee! Just by holding my hand, smart! & the letter, "I tear until swee swee hor!" Mygod, I can never forget that! But I didnt get to see him. Got it from Haikal, who laughed until he peng when he read Baby's letter. HAHAHAHA!

Thursday! Was a lllllooooonnnngggg day. THE boyfriend super baik arh. Made me angry&jealous. Hahaha. But everything turned out fine, of course. 2hours of hardcore 'Sorry la', 'I love you'. & Baby first time wear ring for me, your name face wrong side hor? Heeeheee.

TODAY! it rained for 15 minutes after school? THE boyfriend got sent home cause of his hair, tsktsk. Nonetheless, met him after school with Zi'ang, his friend & his friend's girlfriend. Went to 'eat' & THEY sent me home. Hahaha, escorted home. Ate the famous IKEA gourmet Sweddish Meatballs & slept like a pig. It's the medicine, i swear! & I'm now watching WWE. Vickie & Edge's public display of affection is, GROSS.

Oh, AHXUE! Monday I treat you LongJohnSilver's yea (: I need to get nicenice phone charms for my precious phone!

So, I have a compo to do. What a spoiler! I'll go do it nowwww while I wait for THE boyfriend to call.

PS, I've been walking around Batok for the past few days, & I'm still here. 
PSS, I didnt steal your boyfriend.
♥ 

3 days to FIRST (:
LinkCMNT♥

Disappointment, much? [Jul. 22nd, 2008|11:20 pm]
[mood | disappointed]

HELLLLOOO. HELLLLOOO. So, whose birthday is it today? Heeeheeeheee.

HAPPY SWEET 15TH, VAN-ESSAXO!

Okay, so I know I sound freaking self-obsessed/self-absorbed. But hey, a girl's gotta be self-obsessed on her birthday yea? Okay, who am I kidding *bang head against wall*. Anyways. Someone shares the same birthday as meeeeee!

HAPPY SWEET 17TH, ONGJIEXIANG!
I've known you for umm, 8 months.
& thanks for everything ;D
Cool hur? Same birthday. 22ndJuly is XCORE manzxz.

I owe everybody the sweetest THANK YOU & I can ever give, really. Let me try listing out a few names.

BABY! was the first to message me on 12 midnight.

Kenrick
Dinnie
Qijian
Weijian
Daniel
Jiexiang
Jorbel
Yingxue
Peishan
Xiaoxuan
Shandy
Sherlyn
Rachael
Tina
Faith
Yingqi
Lyana
Afiqah
Sabrina
Musu
Irza
Mirza
Asraf
Jovell
Xinyi
Haikal
Audrey
Erika
Huishan
Genevieve
Marcus
Marcus Lee
Daddy
Mummy

Rights. My brain hurts, so I shall stop. I'm sorry if I forgot to mention your name. I'm like 7/8 dead that kinda thing, so yea. But I love ya'll to the core! Oh, & thanks Haikal for the present. It's super adorable ;D & I thought there wasnt a birthday cake for me. & I was all, "Nevermind, there's always next year." But when I came home from the doctor's, my Daddy Mummy Brother & Maid shouted, "SURPRISE!" & there were 2 cakes on the table. Awhhh *heart melts*. My brother's 'present' is the sweetest. He used
photoshop&fireworks to make a video & his friends sang me a birthday song. ;D

I'll upload the video plus peekas tomorrow. I need to get some shut-eye now. 

♥  

Y'know. I love you Dearest.

LinkCMNT♥

Leggings are the new skinnys, [Jul. 20th, 2008|11:59 pm]
[mood | cheerful]

Yesterday was awesome shitzxz yo.

Woke up early to fetch Erika over & also to do bbq marketing. & I GOT MY SONYERICSSON C902 ;DDD Hell yeah. Bought quite alot & didnt finish in the end, hawhaw. Prepared & stuffs & clique came over at 6. I seriously owe Daddy the biggest THANKYOU & HUG & KISS & AWESOME BIRTHDAY PRESENT manzxz. He actually cooked everything for us. & I mean everything. Then, it had to rain at 830 so we all ran up to my house & watched Prom Night ;D Ateateate. Camera whores. BADASS. & Sherlyn, my leg says, "OUCH!" for grabbing so so so tight when the psycho was gonna kill the Prom Queen. Erika stayed for the night & OHMYGAWD. I sacrificed my AIR CON for her cause she has horrible cramps. & because of that, blood-hungry mosquitoes were eating my life away. Geezxz. Daddy treat the both of us to Marche & then we walked around at Vivo. & seriously, my C902 is a cry for cam-whore-ing. Peekazxz, loads of 'em.

Ohhhhh, I wanna thank all that came yesterday ;D My lovely Clique of; Yingxue Peishan Shandy Faith Tina Sherlyn Yingqi Rachael Huishan Genevieve&Marcus. Ya'll were so sweet when ya'll surprised me with a birthday song, *heart melts*. & all those who wished me in advance. & of course my half-blood sister for life, Erika. The Marie stuffs are super adorable & it complements my Marie stationary, hawhaw. 

 

















I'm giving school a pass again tomorrow. Geezxz, my flu is WHORE-ribble. Cough+sneeze+flu+headache+sorethroat = Vanessa's gonna DIE. I'm serious. It's like, I'm on the verge of death that kinda thing, y'know? Tests, tests & more tests from Tuesday onwards. Crappy shitzxz man. It's my birthday on Tuesday, sapre me the agony will yah? =[ Okay. But seriously, I dont even think I can go to school on Tuesday at this rate. I'll faint in school, I swear.

& I know you're like my best friend & everything. But I have to admit, I think twice before believing whatever you say. & to tell you the truth, I always play the Ignorance Is Bliss game when it comes to your words. Cause 90% of the things you tell me are like _____. & I know some of them are true & you wouldn't lie to me. Still, I'd rather be ignorant so I have one less crap to dwell on y'know?

ANYWAYS. HAPPY 17th DEXTERRRRR ;D I've known you for over a year already & you never fail to be my trustworthy confidante. My fondest memory of you to date is, PANTHER CHEER 08. Yah, I know your fondest memory of it is how I BLEW UP at them cause of their sucky attitude & whatnot. BUT, I remember you as my dance partner. OHMY. Embarrassing to the xcore! Hawhaw. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ;D

Alright. I'm seriously 7/8 dead already. My sneezes are freaking blasting like no tomorrow. & to refrain from my post of hardwork & everything to go to utter WASTE, I shall click "Post to Van-essaxo" nowwwwwww.

I LOVE BABY TO THE COREEEE. TAKE HIM AWAY & I'LL PULL YOUR HAIR OUT! Heeeheee.
22 days of ♥ & 9 days to FIRST ;D 
Kisshug, xo
LinkCMNT♥

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